Beautiful music

Hi friends.

I'm going to keep this short and sweet cause I'm tired today after an unexpected day at Texas Children's yesterday.  But here's the good news...

We heard two beautiful heartbeats on the Doppler yesterday!!!  I wasn't scheduled for an ultrasound or anything so we don't know progress yet.  But I heard those sweet heartbeat sounds and it's just beautiful music to my ears.  Those sweet girls are fighters.  And every time I hear their heartbeats, I feel we are just one step closer to having them here and in our arms.

I was at Texas Children's due to some things going on with my body and pregnancy in general that my doctor wanted to check on.  I don't want to give many details so publicly but essentially, because my body has been under stress, it's working really hard and failing at fighting some things off even with the help of medication.  My doctor again encouraged me to be calm and just enjoy the pregnancy as much as I could.  It's almost funny how many times he has told me to be calm.  So that's something I'm still working on.  In the meantime, he gave me some different medications and I hope to have a healthier body soon.

But all I can focus on is that we heard those heartbeats.  My girls are still alive today!  And I wanted to share that with all the wonderful people praying for us.

Thank you to all of you who have reached out with your own medical miracle stories.  I do know they exist and it gives me more hope that we might have that too.  It seems that we do so far.  I have been able to join a Twin to Twin Transfusion support group on Facebook and I have heard some amazing stories of ladies who have been in my exact shoes.  They have been through my surgery.  They have had those "options" meetings.  Their stories are scary like mine.  And filled with uncertainty as they were also told over and over again that their babies were probably going to die.  And they have beautiful healthy babies today.

This week, I am feeling a bit stronger emotionally and I just feel like I'm back in my fighting shoes.  I have even been able to sleep a little bit more and that in itself feels amazing.  I just feel more at peace this week.  And I know myself...I know that's not me doing that on my own.  That peace is coming from my Jesus.  I know to be expecting feeling low and sad again but right now, in this moment, I'm feeling more like myself.

I'll be back with an update later this week after our other appointments.  Love to you all!